I just happened across a blog I kept senior year if high school. One entry and its comments in particular stood out. The entry was, to sum my 12th grade self’s wording up, “I hate my cross-country coach, she humiliated me in front of the whole team, I’m going to quit!” (I didn’t actually quit because, as my teenaged self rationalized, that’d be letting her win and I didn’t want her to win)
My friend asked what happened. My response (please pardon the unbecoming overuse of profanity frequently manifested in adolescence): she didnt let me come to the meet because i have no ride. and of course she called attention to it in front of the whole damn fucking team. Embarassed the CRAP out of me… what a fucking bitch. it’s not her fucking business if I have a ride or not i’m 18 i’m responsible for my own damn safety! My mom doesn’t care if I walk home and not my fault we don’t have a car
What I did not say because I hated talking about stuff like my high grades, my being in the 97th percentile for SAT and athletic achievements because I thought at 18 “bragging” via stating facts was lame (though necessary as adult) because I still tried to hide my being poor because I was ashamed of it and feared being bullied like how I was laughed at for being homeless in elementary school, was that my attending college absolutely depended on scholarships, academic or athletic. In addition to having my socioeconomic status outed against my will and having the team’s attention called to the fact that out of 1200 high schoolers I was one of maybe a dozen without a family car, I was enraged that she was refusing to let me compete even though I was fourth fastest after one all-American and two all-division runners, a school recordholder, a pointscorer who might improve more and was top 25 in the nation for my track event.
Yay classism! -.- At least I got the scholarships I aspired to DESPITE that bigoted coach. I am blessed to not have undergrad student debt, though I have grad school because full scholarships are near nonexistent.
Just something I wanted to share as an example of the sort of obstacles thrown at hard-working kids just because they’re poor